nobody's in the mood for recording 6.9: the post-trial garden tea "party"

[tsunderine]

The flowers that bloomed at the end of the trial are ones that only seem to prove, continuously, that the road to hell is paved with good intentions.

Of course, it's only natural that many of the people are full of mixed emotions - grief? sadness? anger? frustration? maybe something else completely different?

But it's there, along with the end of the week.

Miasma still continues to be around, of course - but make use of the fact that this might be the last time it'll be at a low level one before it shoots up again.


Well.

Life continues as usual, disregarding any feelings that any of the house's occupants might be feeling.

So what are you doing these next two days?

Comments

[tsunderine]

You shouldn't say 'anything', Dazai-san, the implications of that are horrible.

[cw_suicide]

... is that so?

Haa. I guess I'll avoid that, then.

[tsunderine]

Please do.

I don't want to pinch your cheeks because you started telling people to do 'anything' to you, although you'd probably deserve it.

[.......]

Do you want to... just. Drink and talk?

[cw_suicide]

That is why I sat down...

[though now it's hard to talk seriously... except--]

Yachi-chan already made a point that that sort of thing isn't acceptable, so...

[he's trying. hard? but also. habits. it hard.]

[tsunderine]

It's only okay if all parties are okay with it.

[just going to point that out here.

she's from a canon where she gets into a threesome, so, not entirely judging here.

also going to take a slow drink of her glass.]

But as long as you understand and actually do... that's fine.

[cw_suicide]

The issue was that we were both trying to follow along with this "friends" thing and mostly, the friends I have know that things like that don't mean anything, but apparently "friends" wasn't... correct.

[time to stare at the ceiling because just lost a friend today right after coming to that understanding. how does he not just try to run at the thought of suffering worse? answer: there's nowhere to run]

[tsunderine]

....... she's stupid.

[sighs heavily because holy shit]

I guess I understand that. Sometimes you want to be just 'friends', especially in a place like this that is fueled by suffering...

Don't want to mess things up and make things even worse.

[cw_suicide]

Why is this a type?

[YOU UNDERSTAND ME ON THIS]

[tsunderine]

The world just hates us.

[cw_suicide]

This house certainly does.

[tsunderine]

For sure. Which is why we shouldn't... let it get to us, right?

[cw_suicide]

[time to stare into the void a little before taking another sip of drink]

... I really was thinking it was Flayn-chan for a bit. But then I had to ask about demons.

[the worst.]

[tsunderine]

I remember... we talked about summoning, and how she was easily able to do some summonings.

Well, I can do small familiars as well, but...

[then there's the big one she just can't seem to do]

[cw_suicide]

My thoughts were... she told me about the various plants she took care of, but also she worked as an exorcist--but I wasn't sure how much the two tied in, then that's why...

[that's why he asked.

he has regrets.]

[tsunderine]

I get... what you were trying to do.

But, Dazai-kun. You shouldn't blame yourself for it.

[cw_suicide]

I know that's just what it wants.

... I just don't know what to do with it all.

[tsunderine]

I don't think anyone does.

That's... what it's like, Dazai-san. To be human.

[cw_suicide]

[what if just robotic being of logic instead tho???? WHAT IF THAT INSTEAD?!]

... either way, I guess I've already made my choices there...

[tsunderine]

[look she is literally from the ending where everyone just does exactly that and it's bad and it sucks and it's just very excruciatingly painful all the goddamn time and she's. so. fucking. tired.

so.....


mood, but also,

Dazai-san no]

You have.

But... I don't think that they were the worst choices that you could have made, considering the situation.

[cw_suicide]

[rubs a hand across his face and... heavy sigh.]

Probably not.

... though her being a ghost means my history is probably going to be outed.

[that's. gonna be rough.]

[tsunderine]

Ahh... that's pretty bad, isn't it? That means that they can use it against you? Maybe I should consider myself lucky that I haven't told her that much.

[cw_suicide]

I'm thinking I need to head them off. Say something about it before it can be used against me.

... though there are things she doesn't know.

[tsunderine]

I suppose in some cases, the less people know, the better. Although sometimes you can't help opening up to the people you like and care about.

I'm not going to let some stupid curse stop me from doing what I want just out of fear that it'll stab me in the back.

...well, are the things she doesn't know important?

[cw_suicide]

Not as much for me.

[this is your only hint]

[tsunderine]

Should I be worried for the person it's relevant to?