nobody's in the mood for recording 6.9: the post-trial garden tea "party"

[tsunderine]

The flowers that bloomed at the end of the trial are ones that only seem to prove, continuously, that the road to hell is paved with good intentions.

Of course, it's only natural that many of the people are full of mixed emotions - grief? sadness? anger? frustration? maybe something else completely different?

But it's there, along with the end of the week.

Miasma still continues to be around, of course - but make use of the fact that this might be the last time it'll be at a low level one before it shoots up again.


Well.

Life continues as usual, disregarding any feelings that any of the house's occupants might be feeling.

So what are you doing these next two days?

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[cw_suicide]

[looooong staaaaaaaare. his hand is freshly bandaged by this point.]

... tea would be fine.

[boardreversal]

[He's not even going to ask about the hand because Dazai is covered in bandages anyway??? It's fine.

He does get Dazai a cup, handing it to him in silence before awkwardly going back to his own place at the table.]

....

[cw_suicide]

[it's fine!!!!

and he's taking the cup and




there's kind of a want to hurl it against the wall and have a childish, screaming fit about fairness




instead he just finds a chair to sit down in.]

[boardreversal]

[That is, honestly, a goddamn mood - but he already had his minor fit about fairness, back at the trial.

When everything came out.

So he'd....rather not re-tread old ground.

So, instead...]

....Do you know if there's any extra paper around here? Or pencils?

[cw_suicide]

... Ango or Yachi-chan should have something.

Other than that, I dunno.

[boardreversal]

...Thanks. I'll ask them later, then.

[There's another pause, before he lifts his head again.]

It's - to try and write something. I know Sakaguchi-san and Yachi-chan are already writing things down, but...I got some advice to try my own hand at it. I'm sure it won't be anything good, but...It's better than just waiting around for someone else to die, right?

[cw_suicide]

[oops.

that's a dropped cup of tea shattering on the ground and Dazai staring blankly down at it like he's not sure how it got from his hand which he was bringing to his mouth and... down there.

how did it get there? a mystery...]

[boardreversal]

[Of course, Battler doesn't understand what just happened - how could he? All he knew was that he was talking about something - anything, really - and then Dazai dropped a damn cup on the floor.]

Dazai-san! What - hey, what happened?! You didn't get cut, did you?

[cw_suicide]

... no.

It... fell.

[kind of distantly said, but he's trying to get back onto a stablish ground but it's hard--]

It's not enough that you have to be superficially like him, but now this too...?

[boardreversal]

[Unfortunately -]

...Like...him?

[ - he was a little too close when he heard that, he'd moved to try and mop up the tea and take care of the shards.]

[cw_suicide]

[... you weren't supposed to hear that.]

[boardreversal]

[Too late now - the cogs are running in his brain, as he stares at Dazai.]

...Wait...

[There's Ango Sakaguchi, and Osamu Dazai, but...wasn't there another one?

Another man in his world, who also wrote a famous novel, and weren't those three commonly grouped together....? ... not only that, but the way he's acting...he's grieving.

'Wasn't....there someone else, that the Dazai from my world grieved for, too?
What...was his name, again?
...There was another man that called out Dazai that one time, but - ugh, it's right on the tip of my tongue!
....Oh. Right, it's -']

...Are you...talking about Oda Sakunosuke?

[cw_suicide]

[well, that's a lengthy pause of someone who just doesn't even know what to do at this point.

he's emotionally drained and keyed up at the same time, there's just no energy. what would be the point? he's avoided it this long... and of course, this guy being smarter than he looks...

a very quiet sigh escapes him as he looks to the broken cup.]

Different from your world's situation. You're actually nothing like him personality-wise, for the record. But you have the same coloring. Some of the same bulldoggedness. You just won't stop until you're satisfied or--

[... shit happens that break you so hard you just give up]

[boardreversal]

[There's a pause, as he takes that in.

'The same coloring...so, Oda-san had red hair and blue eyes, too...?
But..it's more than that, right?
If I act like him in those respects, I must have been bringing up those old memories...
....Dazai-san....']

....Thank you.

[With a smile on his face...he thanks the man in front of him, guilelessly.]

...I finally...understand, now. And - I'm glad you told me.

[There a pause, as he kneels down and finishes mopping up the tea, grabbing a dustpan to get the broken shards into.]

You must've cared for him a lot, Dazai-san.

[cw_suicide]

He was my friend.

[like... that's how that goes, right? of course he cared a lot.]

It's not like what you might know--he didn't live long enough to write anything. Though he... really wanted to.

It was actually pretty silly. A former talented child assassin saying he wouldn't kill anymore because he wanted to write a story.

[so there's the reason cup was dropped. just. hahaha...]

[boardreversal]

...I don't think something like that's silly at all.

[That...definitely makes a lot more sense, now. Why does he keep hitting people's buttons without meaning to?

Also Oda Sakunosuke the assassin sure is a fucking thing to consider.]

I think - Oda-san must have been pretty brave, in his own way. To want to stop killing people and create something...that just shows how much he meant it.

[Though he's still assuming the tuberculosis death, honestly.]

You've said a little about him, but...what was he like? Really like, not just in comparison to me.

[cw_suicide]

[what was Odasaku really like...

thinking it over.]

He always seemed very calm on the outside. Definitely a "still waters run deep" sort of thing. He usually took things people said at face value, had a bad habit of letting people just say the craziest things without the bat of an eyelash. [guess who was especially guilty of this] But he was very firm in his decisions. Once he made up his mind, there was no way of changing it.

[BOY DID HE TRY.]

And he never shaved consistently. It's such a small thing, but it'd make you wonder if he needed a better razor. Maybe he just didn't like to shave. [or depression and shit] He also confused Cinderella and Snow White. And liked his curry way too spicy for me to handle.

[and then he's quiet for a moment before:]

... I think he did get frustrated with me, once. In a way, I forced his hand and made him shoot a sniper in the arm so the sniper's bullet only grazed my head. I really was a brat, then.

[still is...]

[boardreversal]

...He sounds like he was a really interesting guy...I would've loved to talk with him once.

[There's not much else he can say - but he is thankful. Thankful that, finally, Dazai is openly talking to him, for once.]

And...I can kind of get why he'd be a little frustrated with you. If he was really that open and honest...then he probably saw the same thing I do with you.

[The whole...gaping wound in chest thing.]

Do you...know what he wanted to write about?