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foundationmods ([personal profile] foundationmods) wrote in [community profile] thefoundation2019-07-20 12:06 pm
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Week 4, Saturday

[As everyone files into the studio once more, they will be invited up on stage instead of to their audience seats as they normally are. On the far left of the stage is a set of 16 chairs, one for each living contestant, arranged in two rows of 8. On the right is a podium for Dazai to stand at, and in the center is a big board with spaces and numbers on it.

Once everyone gets settled in, it's time for the game.
]
oceanicbutterfly: ([k] Shut up!)

[personal profile] oceanicbutterfly 2019-07-21 02:38 am (UTC)(link)
Isn't it?!

[She doesn't mean for her voice to have as much bite as it does.]

I haven't been any help even once! I haven't found any useful information, I haven't protected anyone in these games, I didn't contribute anything to solving Aqua's murder, and the one time I did anything to help prevent someone from being killed, it let this happen. And none of that is even a surprise, because I'm always useless!
iblistriggered: (FUCK OFF SPACE EGG)

[personal profile] iblistriggered 2019-07-21 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
[Silver's expressions scroll through several in quick succession. Confusion at being yelled at, angry at being yelled at, concerned for Karen, then finally determined]

You stopped Oda and Moriarty from KILLING each other! If we had to go to trial for that, what do you think would have happened? Do you really think we would have been able to figure it out? And even if we did, do you think the Foundation would have let us NOT execute someone?! Atsushi and Alcor are dead, yes. And Alcor exploded like a friggin' moron. But if you hadn't been with Oda that night, then another innocent person would STILL be dead because this game is rigged! You're NOT useless, besides! You're smart, and kind, and funny, and you have experience with a stupid kind of game like this one!
oceanicbutterfly: ([k] Dangerous)

[personal profile] oceanicbutterfly 2019-07-21 03:05 am (UTC)(link)
I have experience dying! That was my contribution last time! I died, because people thought I was a murderer! Because I didn't get along well with someone and I couldn't get people to trust me! Any other Precure could have done that much, even the actual monsters who killed people got that far, but not me!
iblistriggered: bon appetit. (started making it. had a breakdown.)

cw: suicidal ideation

[personal profile] iblistriggered 2019-07-21 03:12 am (UTC)(link)
[Silver opens his mouth like he's going to say something, but then stops. He knows this mood. He only recently clawed out of it himself.

He knows there's nothing he can say to make her change her mind right now. Even the best advice would fall on deaf ears. So, change of tactic
]

So what then? What's next? Are you going to give up? [judgey words, but his tone is surprisingly not] ... I'd be lying if I said I didn't want to give up, too. To just... quit trying at all and really see if I can go home for real. I mean, what the hell good am I? I just happened to be in the hallway when Otete called out. But I'm not going to stop yet. I'm tired. But it's almost easier to just keep moving forward.
Edited 2019-07-21 03:13 (UTC)
oceanicbutterfly: ([k] Sad and lonely)

cw: suicidal ideation, continued

[personal profile] oceanicbutterfly 2019-07-21 03:39 am (UTC)(link)
...I don't know.

[When Karen responds, she sounds oddly calm. Like they're just talking about going to the grocery store or something.]

The others... they wouldn't want me to. If they were here they'd tell me to keep going. They wouldn't even have let me get this far.

[She smiles sadly, and now her voice starts to waver.]

But that's the problem, isn't it? They aren't here. I'll probably never see them again. It's just a question of how long I'm going to live without them.
iblistriggered: (it’s called oatmeal. try it sometime)

lbr it'll probably be a RUNNING THEME

[personal profile] iblistriggered 2019-07-21 03:45 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah... my friends from home... they'd say the same thing. "You can't give up, Silver! You're stronger than that, Silver!" But I'm not sure that I am.

[sigh]

But they're not here, and we are. So if I, or you, can't find a reason to keep going for ourselves... then maybe...
oceanicbutterfly: ([k] I won't cry)

yep, still cw

[personal profile] oceanicbutterfly 2019-07-21 04:03 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe...

[After a second she shakes her head.]

It's stupid. Of course it is. I know it is. There are people here, in this world, who'd be upset if something happened to either one of us.

[It's just hard to see that as enough, sometimes.]
iblistriggered: (not to sound too millennial)

[personal profile] iblistriggered 2019-07-21 04:31 am (UTC)(link)
And yet a part of you says "who cares what they think? If I'm not happy, then what's the point".

...

But a bigger part doesn't want to hurt them like that with my selfishness.