[Her words are kind - in a way that's sounding just a little strained.]
That's why it's easier to focus on everyone else. But - I know it's unfair, to have to saddle those sorts of expectations on everyone. To make it so that I'm not allowed to shatter... or to force others to act in a way that they have to mask their pain around me.
Because something like that only tears me up even more. I'd rather have a balance... I guess? To be able to have my friends be able to rely on me, but be open enough to do the same. That's the kind of person I want to be.
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[Her words are kind - in a way that's sounding just a little strained.]
That's why it's easier to focus on everyone else. But - I know it's unfair, to have to saddle those sorts of expectations on everyone. To make it so that I'm not allowed to shatter... or to force others to act in a way that they have to mask their pain around me.
Because something like that only tears me up even more. I'd rather have a balance... I guess? To be able to have my friends be able to rely on me, but be open enough to do the same. That's the kind of person I want to be.
[Her voice is too soft as she says those words.]