... it's not like that at all.

You're thinking too well of me again.

I didn't do it because I thought the blow would be softer--of course it wouldn't be.

But if I said it... then the possibility of it be the reality goes up, right?

[what he honestly doesn't know how to say: he was scared. the words choked him in terror. and explaining that fear... well. that just leads nowhere good.]