[CONTINUE] Week 1 || Act: mingle

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Monday comes onto the snowy town once more, though it still looks as if it's 'night' as ever.

Then again, you are underground. That's just to be expected, considering no natural light can get down here in the first place. The Monsters around you are just as friendly as ever, despite this being your second 'time' trying this monday.

...Though....are there a few less Monsters here than there were before? ...Nah. You must be imagining it.

You still have a mission - and after the events of the last trial, you want to do your best to stop whatever is causing this.

But, hey. You really do have nothing but time now to figure it out.

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[cw_suicide]

I wasn't really expecting anything to come from it, immediately.

But keeping quiet about the worst case scenario for the sake of unity of the group has never been my strong suit.

I did say someone with better people skills would have to figure it out, didn't I?

[le_mat]

Nah, I wouldn't want you to censor yourself. Any group that gets along all the time probably isn't very close at all.

... though anytime someone says "someone with people skills" it feels like they're looking at me. Heh.

[he packs the snow tighter]

I SHOULD talk to Solomon though, once he calms down.

[cw_suicide]

That's your personal bias, though it's not wrong.

There are plenty of people here who have been through this sort of ordeal and done a much better job of calling for cooperation than me, is mostly what I'm alluding to. I'm not really... mm... designed with that function, so to speak.

[le_mat]

[he doesn't argue the bias, because he knows his own tendacy towards his ego. It's what almost lost him all his friends during the Camp.]

Well if a few heartfelt speeches and hugs solved these things alone then none of us would have ever lost anything. I think your ideas are insightful at least. Sometimes you have to just... dig in and get dirty.

[cw_suicide]

Well... if you want to take a stab at the heartfelt speeches and hugs... probably turn words of scolding I'd have about Solomon-sama being allowed to risk his life to save people in that house--even the ones who killed for personal satisfaction--but being thoroughly offended when we want to repay the favor, keep him and ourselves and others we care about safe, is very rude of him.

[because Dazai can't seem to untangle the feelings of frustration at the moment

probably why this little snow mound is getting more than one stone pressed hard into its "face"]

It's not like I don't understand how it feels to be told "you're not allowed to risk yourself"--haven't I continuously gotten than since that house...?

[le_mat]

Heh, I'll try to translate it into something softer, yeah. It's funny... it's almost like people who go a long time feeling nothing don't handle a lot of emotions all at once well once their walls are down. I guess that kind of thing just takes patience...

[Ren, plz]

[cw_suicide]

I wouldn't know much about any of that.

[le_mat]

Hmm, of course. It's just something to keep in mind with the Boss.

[he sticks some sticks in his snow blob.]

... does this look like a reindeer to you?

[cw_suicide]

Jackalope.

[le_mat]

[he frames the lump with his fingers, ponders, then grabs some leaves for ears]

Perfect.

[cw_suicide]

[huffffffs in something like vague amusement.]

... patience is a social skill. One has to be exposed to such traits in others to have any hope in having it for themselves--or so I think, anyway. And even with that, there's always conditions.

Someone who has lived a life dyeing their ledger red making a mistake in how to handle a situation and being chided for it--patience is easy enough to find. People saying "do good" but then get annoyed at you when you try to do that but then botch it? I don't really have much patience for that.

[le_mat]

[Ren winces and nods]

There's not much worse then holding out something you were so sure was "good" and seeing everyone's face twist up. If you're lucky there's people around you who's cues you trust but...

Well, it doesn't help that what's "good" is so vauge. Likes it's something you're just supposed to know.

Solomon's lived so long, he's hard to read like that. That's my guess anyway. I can get being fed up with it.

[cw_suicide]

"Good" and "bad" aren't real things. They're just concepts.

... probably, sometimes, it's easier to use "prettier" and "uglier". That makes a little more sense, going by how people react sometimes.

[hi, my name is Dazai Osamu and being "good" is hard]

Though, I wouldn't say it's just Solomon's response. His response makes sense for himself as someone who doesn't see the value in himself--or, rather... the value of himself becomes meaningless when it outweighs itself in the cost of lives. Cost of leadership is always your life is worth more than the ones laid down for you, after all.

It's just frustrating in general. Because I can understand it. "Probably it would be better if I hadn't existed because then the Foundation wouldn't exist and then you all wouldn't have suffered so needlessly until I got my act together" or something similar. Which is short-sighted. Does he think we just want to give up what we have managed to cobble together after getting pulled into this world?

... more importantly, I'm someone who, in another world, has lived a life where I have destroyed everything to find a place where a person important to me could achieve his dream. That dream was still interrupted but maybe that person can find happiness here. Am I supposed to stay quiet and accept that might get taken away, too? I wasn't able to in that life, how could I in this one?

[hhhhhhhaaaaaaa. ok that was a bit much. but also. hhhhhffffff. smooshing a snow mounds in bare hands.]

The same thing applies to people here, also. To one degree or another.

cw: vague mentions of suicide

[le_mat]

... you're not wrong. Most of the people that couldn't find a purpose here are gone now. Hell, I'm MARRIED- it's a little insulting to think I don't have a stake in this world even if I'm not a native.

We're here because we want to be, because we have something to protect. Not just him.

Re: cw: vague mentions of suicide

[cw_suicide]

Right?! It's like that, isn't it?!

[and look, he only didn't use Hitoka as the example there because uhhhh he's. he's working through having those feelings, listen.]

And it's not as though I don't expect the same treatment in kind--in fact! More people have talked me out of volunteering than have volunteered!

[le_mat]

[He nods]

With that in mind... maybe I shouldn't have offered so easily either. I'm gonna get yelled at when we get home if Nine watched that.

[cw_suicide]

You and Wei Wuxian both, really.

[mistress getting full name treatment because him angy]

[le_mat]

Wei-san was NOT thrilled about me offering- then went and did it himself. It's all backward.

[He might still be a little butthurt at being sat at the kiddies table. That and Sans calling him 'kiddo']

[cw_suicide]

He wasn't wrong to point out your youth, but claiming he lived full lives when his was full of as much tragedy as it was, cut short, and then another one ripped from him because of SCP 6530--it's nonsensical, and he's just telling the lies that sound prettiest.

[le_mat]

I doubt even an old man on his death bed could really say he lived completely to his fullest, huh...

[cw_suicide]

I'd accept an old man's claim way more easily.

[le_mat]

Do you think Wei-san would get mad if I called him Gramps? Since I'm a kid and all.

[SMirk]

[cw_suicide]

No. He'd probably take full advantage that someone acknowledges his need to be the senior.

[le_mat]

Ngh, do you think he'd pat my head or something??

[cw_suicide]

He is friendlier to cats than dogs.