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thefoundation2020-05-16 11:21 pm
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RECORDING 16: THE FINAL WEEK.
A sixth week in this place begins, with less of your number among you. It's feeling more and more like something's about to break.
There isn't any increase in Miasma, but you can tell it seems...excited. Overjoyed, like a predator bracing itself for the chase of the hunt. The fog is everywhere, and inescapable...
The Temperature is holding stead at the 50's, and nippy to need a layer or two. As before, the rooms have changed, so hopefully you kept anything essential in the static area.
13 of your number still remain.
...How will this all end...?
dining room;
[ Gilgamesh did give Romani a look over, satisfied he didn't get himself injured. Maybe the King's luck rubbed off on him. ]
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[ romani jolts a bit when he hears the king’s voice, his green eyes snapping open as he settles his gaze on gilgamesh.
ah...
he smiles softly. not forced, but definitely weary after all these weeks. ]
I... am not sure what to say, my King. There’s so much that I want to say and yet I can’t find the words for any of it.
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[ Words bordering on definitely teasing and maybe could be counted as much. He blamed the other's reaction on the situation, naturally, though Gilgamesh resolved not to show his weariness even now. Which was just more or less an immense obstinate part of him.
Gilgamesh could also see the weariness clear in the other's expression, however, but he wouldn't fault him for it. It's been a long six weeks. ]
That said, you may feel free to address me a little more casually tonight. We're hardly in private quarters, but I could care less if the accursed specters wish to act as voyeurs in our most intimate moments.
[ Gilgamesh came closer to the red head now that he had walked into the dining room and surprised the bejesus out of him. ]
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[ he laughs quietly, a warm, fuzzy feeling filling his chest despite the chill in the room and the situation looming over them like an inescapable storm. he stretches out his hand, hoping to hold gilgamesh’s— they may never do this again so it’s best to enjoy the moments they have left.
as for what to say...man, that’s a tall order. romani stays silent for a long moment, organizing his thoughts and words together. once satisfied, he speaks up. ]
I’m terrified for what will come tomorrow. The anticipation of this battle against something that is probably far stronger than us scares me to death. [ he laughs again. ] Strangely enough, though, that fear only makes me want to struggle harder—maybe because I’m more scared of becoming something like them.
[ there’s another long silence, his expression distant and serene. ]
But I wouldn’t want take any of this back. Is that strange, Ki- Gilgamesh? There was so much suffering and pain... but without it there’s a lot of things I wouldn’t have realized.
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Gilgamesh reached out to take the man's outstretched hand within his own, fingers already intertwining without a single bit of hesitation. He gave the other man's words some consideration. ]
Hmph, if it's brought you to become able to be strong enough to keep yourself standing in situation like this, I could hardly call it strange.
[ There was a moment of self-reflection. As much as he too loathed being in a situation like this, he supposed it wasn't like he had gained "nothing". Just looking at Romani was proof of that in of itself. At that thought, he moved his other hand to lay against the other man's cheek. ]
I'm sure some of those other mongrels would say something similar as well. And as for myself...how could I not think there was nothing to gain in such struggles? In truth, one is able to see someone's true worth in such things, even if I'm not someone who'd have desired for us to deal with this nonsense in the first place.
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it's a daunting thought, but romani can't help but feel strangely at peace, leaning against gilgamesh's hand with a soft sigh. ]
I don't think I would have been able to become so strong without the support I've received. And not just good support either. Every experience in this house...I wouldn't trade it, no matter how painful it was.
[ ...
he opens his eyes, staring up at gilgamesh's gaze. ]
Thank you, Gilgamesh. And, if I'm not allowed to say it again tomorrow, I just want you to know... that I love you.
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[ "...I love you."
For a moment, everything else Romani said seemed to become tuned out. His heart felt like it skipped a beat as the words. For the second time during their entire stay here, Romani had struck the King of Heroes speechless.
...But was that such a surprise? He had looked upon him with such adoration, and had such an obvious crush the size of Ancient Mesopotamia on him. Yet, it was true that he wondered if what the Doctor held for him could be "love". Not because he thought the man's feelings were untrue, but because of their situation.
King Gilgamesh was still stupid about feelings, even if he had become mildly better at it (?), not to mention they were in a relationship. Though it's been a painfully long time he's been in a serious one, where he hadn't been just doing it just because, or circumstances.
And so he re-evaluated what he felt. Was that still what he felt when he saw Romani? The answer came quick. Of course he loved him. They were also honestly about to probably die, so why wouldn't he be able to admit it to himself at least?
Indeed, there was nothing wrong with that. He's made a habit of hardly making room in his heart due to the wretched heartbreak the death of his friend caused, but...he could make an exception one more time, right? For the person who's become most valuable to him. Someone he could trust wholeheartedly once more. ]
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[ His words were softly spoken, more than they've ever been before. And of course, he met Romani's gaze. And then, he'll smile. He's aware of it and not at the same time, because somehow it felt different. It's definitely similar to the one or two he showed Romani before in private, but somehow softer.
The closest to being so honest and happy in a place like this that one could consider it a vulnerability. A face that Gilgamesh would loathe to show to anyone, and yet he decided to choose Romani. He felt defiant in doing so as well. That he could do this in such a situation showed how great and powerful he was (because of course his giant-ass ego factored into everything.) ]
I suppose it shouldn't come as a surprise to me that you've found a place in my heart. You've been a fool at times, to the point where I'd wonder what nonsense was going on through your head—but you're my fool. There's no one else I would bother to think of the word 'love' in such a wretched place.
Hmph, luckily I won't bore you with commentary about how having you by my side has changed anything. Though, it has helped knowing that I could trust someone here not to be a complete and total imbecile.
And if somehow, we should leave this place together, you know my desire to take you away from sheer utter nonsense and insulting incompetence. I would love to show you a world full of pleasure, in every sense of the word.
[ There was much to see, much to enjoy, and he would have liked to fill their time spending every moment of it. It was silly but he often fantasized bringing the man to even a great beach with such a view, that when Romani smiled, he would look like the sun...such would be the brightness of his expression.
Indeed, he will cherish this moment so greatly, it could be something...so precious to him.
No matter what happened tomorrow, The King of Uruk will remember this. ]