are we actually living? or are we being kept alive?

[finalring]

After the execution, the survivors are dismissed to rest in preparation for the next week. The miasma curls and turns into each room, letting fall a cold and oppressive atmosphere that fills every corner of the place.

And yet, even in a place that has caused so much grief, life must go on. Thirteen has always been considered to be an unlucky number, but that is the number of people that are left--what will you do, in this false calm?

Comments

[finalring]

Ky?

[ he closes his notebook, trying to force a small smile. ]

Do you need anything?

[zweivoltage]

I... was seeing how you were.

[a beat, before he adds]

I didn't feel like returning to my room.

[finalring]

I'm...

[ he's about to say that he's fine, but that's too blatant of a lie for anyone to believe. ]

I'm not sure, to be honest. [ ... ] Come here. We can talk.

[zweivoltage]

[He nods, stepping inside at the invitation]

Talking sounds good... I'm not much of a good conversationalist. I'm more a lecturer...

[finalring]

I'm not really good at conversations myself, actually. But there must be a lot on your mind-- I don't mind listening.

[zweivoltage]

I...

[He stops, a little hesitant, unsure - before speaking]

To be honest, I scared myself during the trial yesterday, and I probably scared anyone else close by.

[finalring]

...You were angry, weren't you?

[ he pats the side of the bed, moving to sit at the edge of it. ]

You were angry over both of their deaths.

[zweivoltage]

[He takes the offered seat]

To say the least - I didn't see Hikage as a person when he said that, about Battler screaming... but as something like a Gear - a monster to be eliminated.

I don't know what would happen if Dazai hadn't stepped in.

[finalring]

...

[ romani's gaze falls slightly, but not because he's judging ky. if anything, he looks...upset. ]

I think... I understand the feeling. [ he remembers how relieved he felt when rosa said that she would only shoot him in a non-lethal place, and it makes him feel almost sick. ]

Does it make you feel like you're a bad person?

[zweivoltage]

[He quietly nods, he did just stand by and let them shoot Hikage in the end. It wouldn't have been hard for him to get out of Dazai's grip]

I never really wanted to really kill another person, I know I voted for Gin out of spite - but I didn't actually want him dead, no matter how much of a gadfly he is... the fact It just - came so easily, almost like a switch.

[finalring]

I believe that it might...be the miasma that's pushing us to these extremes.

[ he sighs. ]

Not saying that the anger isn't yours or mine...they definitely is. But I guess the miasma just adds fuel to the fire.