the truth is, everyone wishes to be saved.

[finalring]

The execution has come and passed with the death of two more Agents. However time moves on without cease and so must the living. There are no celebrations, only the silence that grows heavier and heavier with every day and the feeling that something is pleased with what it has done.

There are two more days before the new week arrives: what will you do?

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[zweivoltage]

[Over and over... oh dear god, what has this man been Through? He swallows, feeling that lump in his throat, the hands staying partly because Ky has no idea what else he's supposed to do now. Words seem empty against trauma of this magnititude, or of a lover's grief]

I wish I know what I can do to help, Battler. Because it's not right to see you being hurt.

[boardreversal]

[His last chuckles die down, as he holds the untouched cup of tea in his hands, as the tears just keep flowing, droplets sometimes falling into the cup itself.]

...I....don't know....I just...don't know, Kiske-kun.

[...]

...I just....don't...want this. I don't....want to always be the one....who's left standing in the end....

[zweivoltage]

[The one left standing at the end...]

I can't make promises, not in this situation about what will happen in the future...

[Why are his eyes burning? He lightly squeezes Battler's shoulders]

Please, let me help you - no matter what it is. I'm not good with comfort, or anything that isn't about warfare or battle, but I want to do something - anything to help.

[boardreversal]

...Kiske-kun....I....

[His hands are trembling, and he sets aside the cup of tea down on the floor before...just leaning forward, burying his face in Ky's shoulder and breaking into tears again, his hands coming up to cling like a drowning man to a rock.]

Aaaaaaahhhh, uwaaaaaah....! It's not...fair, it's...she didn't....she was struggling so much...why?! why didn't anyone else see it...?! And why....why didn't I offer to be the one voted out...?! Why did I think...they'd listen to Aunt Rosa?! Aaaah, it's all useless...

[zweivoltage]

[His throat tightens, eyes burning. Something hot and wet started coming and running down his cheeks. Battler, Rin - they suffered and nobody knew... He didn't look closer. Why didn't he look closer?

A hand ends up instinctively, trying to cover his own face as Battler starts crying, even as he's clung to. He can't show it. But his voice wavers and strains the more he tries to resist]

I'm sorry, I'm so - so sorry, I thought better natures would... I should've... Battler, please, don't blame yourself.

[boardreversal]

[He can't stop, his sobbing turning incoherent, as he clings and cries, helplessly.

Though he shakes his head at the plea to not blame himself, he can't speak.

He's felt like he's cried an ocean, and yet...there is still, and will always be more. An Ocean of sorrow and regret, that'll never drain.]

[zweivoltage]

[A sound, almost like a sob escapes from him]

Bat-battler...

[He's crying... he's crying why is he crying when it's Battler that's hurting? It did hurt to see the fights, the dead, but he needed to be strong. The young man sniffles despite himself, trying to swallow back the sounds]

[boardreversal]

[He'd normally say it's okay to cry right along with him - or perhaps say he shouldn't be crying so hard - but he can't speak. There's nothing but the tears coursing through him right now, and he...

He needs to let it all out. Or else...he'll drown.]

[zweivoltage]

[He swallows, managing to keep the sobbing in check somewhat, but he still let out rather snotty sniffles, tears streaking]

Ahn...

[Then slowly, his hands lowered, putting it around Battler, unsure about the gesture... but it seems appropriate?]

[boardreversal]

[It is - it's not inappropriate at least, as his begin to wind down to just hiccups and half-breaths, quietly seperating himself from Ky and wiping his face.]

....Thank you, Kiske-kun...

[It feels...better, to know that someone is there to catch him - and when he finishes, he sees sight of those tears and pauses.]

...You....

[...Is this...what it feels like, to have someone also cry for you? Or....]

...It's alright, Kiske-kun. You can - you can cry, just a little. I won't...tell anyone.

[zweivoltage]

[He rubs at his eyes with the heel of his hand, then his sleeve]

Th... thank you.

[Slowly, Ky exhales]

I came to check on you - and... and here we are.

[boardreversal]

...Sorry.

[He feels like he should apologize, though he's through sobbing the way he just did.]

...But, thank you for checking up on me. ...Even if, all I did was cry...

[There's a moment when he places his hand to his head, giving a soft noise of pain.]

I...think I better drink the tea you brought...