the truth is, everyone wishes to be saved.

[finalring]

The execution has come and passed with the death of two more Agents. However time moves on without cease and so must the living. There are no celebrations, only the silence that grows heavier and heavier with every day and the feeling that something is pleased with what it has done.

There are two more days before the new week arrives: what will you do?

Comments

[golden_dream]

...

[She blinks, then blinks again. Before writing:

"What are you talking about? This was my own fault. ...I don't blame anyone for this, except myself."]

[cw_suicide]

[after a moment of just standing quietly, he's rubbing at his temples with one hand and sighing.]

No, nevermind.

I'm... much too tired to be thinking about these things right now.

[golden_dream]

[Writing fast, but not frantically, and turning it around before he gets too impatient:

"No, I'm serious! I don't blame Hitoka-chan, much less Battler... I've told Battler that already. It's... not good. But, I'm still alive."

Pause, then she has an epiphany.

"Are you... thinking about Yuri, still... and, therefore I must hate everyone?"

A long pause... before she hangs her head and gives in, writing her next message and hating every second of it.

"All right. I admit it. I hated Yuri, even if it wasn't her fault. But you don't understand... the miasma made me remember something that's haunted me throughout my entire life... I regret it. I'm sorry. I just couldn't handle it... that's the truth."

Then she slowly flips it up, so he can read her next passage.]

[cw_suicide]

[he does but he wasn't lying when he said he was really too tired for this. but he's trying. and he takes the time to read through those words before he puts a hand on the notebook to turn it back to her. gently.]

... I don't share the experiences of people suffering from the miasma, Rosa-san. I'm a complete outsider to a lot of things going on here. So, yes... when I saw that, and hear you be spiteful about kind people trying their best in a bad situation... I get worried for people like Hitoka.

[and if the familiarity there isn't enough to give away just how much shit he will wreck if something happens to her, well...]

If I don't have anything to worry about there, then... fine. I really don't want to fight with anyone here if I don't have to, and I do actually appreciate when you do make efforts.

I'm just... admittedly not so different in the spiteful and petty areas as you. Possibly even for similar reasons but who can say?

[haha how many people here are fucked up because of shit that happened ages ago? answer: so many of them]

But I am trying to be better. Even in spite of this place.

[golden_dream]

[Oh... right. it was all different for Dazai, wasn't it? Battler, too? Yeah... but Battler was becoming one of the most traumatized people here, and...

...oh.]

...

[She nods. Then writes:

"I understand." ... "We're both tired... let's call it a day.

Let's give each other second chances and start off better next time. I promise it'll be different."

Another long nod, then she puts her notepad back because... what else is there to say?]

[cw_suicide]

[sure is hard not to get traumatized when there's literally nothing they can do to help the people around them ahahaha...]

... all right.

[he has no objections to tabling discussions, tbqh.]

[golden_dream]

[Dazai gets one more nod before she'll step aside to let him enter the bathroom... or, failing that, she'll turn for her own room.]