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thefoundation2020-04-25 03:31 pm
tsunderine) wrote in thefoundation2020-04-25 03:31 pm
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nobody's in the mood for recording 6.9: the post-trial garden tea "party"
- The flowers that bloomed at the end of the trial are ones that only seem to prove, continuously, that the road to hell is paved with good intentions.
Of course, it's only natural that many of the people are full of mixed emotions - grief? sadness? anger? frustration? maybe something else completely different?
But it's there, along with the end of the week.
Miasma still continues to be around, of course - but make use of the fact that this might be the last time it'll be at a low level one before it shoots up again.
Well.
Life continues as usual, disregarding any feelings that any of the house's occupants might be feeling.
So what are you doing these next two days?
private; also cw suicidal ideation
[she glances around, trying to lower her voice]
I thought that maybe it would have been better, if it was me.
But I was only kidding myself... you know? Basically trying to convince myself that I had nothing left to lose.
I'm seriously... an idiot.
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...But as she says the last bit, a genuine smile spreads on his face.
It's maybe a little odd to do as she insults herself, but...
'I'm glad.
Rin-chan...realized what she was doing, and now...
She'll stop trying to do that, right?
To argue that she should be voted out, because of what she did.']
...You're right. You were an idiot...but, even an idiot can change once they realize what they're doing.
[He gives her a grin, as he leans back in his chair a little bit.]
Take it from me! Ihihihihi~
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[it's obvious by the way she says the last word so lightheartedly that she actually doesn't mean the word at all.]
... But, I did say I wanted to talk to you.
[she promised she would at least...
...do this much...
in spite of the fact that she's very well aware that she doesn't deserve it.]
Will you listen to this idiot's words for a bit?
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[He speaks, immediately - without a hint of hesitation, staring directly at her with that smile of his.]
No matter what it is, I'll listen to you. Listening to a pretty girl is a way better use of my time today, anyway.
[Than like...sulking or feeling terrible about Yuri, and how unfair it all was.]
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[there's the slight tinges of pink that slip into her cheeks as she fiddles with her hair in an attempt to hide it, her aqua eyes darting back and forth, unable to keep herself still.
deep breaths, Tohsaka Rin.
don't mess up.
be elegant.
you are a Tohsaka after all.
it's crucial that you don't mess up.]
You see, we've... known each other for a bit, right? And - we've gotten to know each other pretty well, I think.
I know this might be a bad place and a bad time, but...
If I don't say it now, then when?
[and what if she loses him before she can? she doesn't even want to think about that]
Battler. [no honorific. she's serious.] I... like you. As more than just friends, or co-workers, or anything like that.
[please don't misinterpret her feelings
please don't misinterpret her feelings]
1/?????
To every little bit she says.
And, surprisingly, he doesn't start talking first when she starts to wrap up, though it's clear he doesn't...quite believe it at first from the dumb expression on his face.
When he does finally open his mouth -]
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Would...Rin-chan really make a joke like this?
I mean, sure, we've joked around a lot, but...
...
What if....she's...
...Serious...?']
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...Is she actually...serious?
That's...
....']
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And suddenly, he starts blushing - nearly turning the same red as his hair.
'She's....serious.']
done
There's only that one thought, that realization, ping ponging in his head.
He should say something back, but all he can think is 'Rin-chan just admitted she liked me' and 'I've never had a girlfriend before what the hell do I do now????']
I...I, um...I...
[...]
I....like you too. Like that.
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the shoe drops and she can feel her breath completely stills. guess the others were right, huh. the blush on her tinged cheeks doesn't seem to fade, however, alhough she tries to glance at him a little more properly to see the look on his face.
it's kind of cute, really...]
Thenβ
Um.
[she fiddles with her fingers where she's seated, a little nervous]
Do you think we should...?
[she doesn't know, she's never done this sort of thing before.]
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...Undeniably his type
sure, maybe her chest could be bigger, but those thighs made up for it, with how she wasn't afraid to speak her mind and tease him mercilessly, but also ended up showing her sweeter sides at the littlest things. Even now, seeing her so shy and timid, he couldn't help but think - aaaah, she's really, really cute...It's why...even though it took him a moment to accept, he admitted that he felt the same way.
But now she's asking something that has to end with 'should we kiss', and he's - frozen, just for a moment, because he's flying just as blind here as she is. Beyond seeing other peers get into relationships and stories that included romance, he's never really had to consider it.
But, there's also instinct guiding him - so, hesitantly, a little clumsily...he lifts a hand to gently touch the side of her face while leaning in, and then -
His lips touch hers, softly, like he's afraid she'll pull back.]
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this suits her.
and more importantly, in a place like this, as much as she loathes to admit it, isn't it better like this?
they've only been in this house for two weeks, but they've known each other for longer than that. and he's been nothing but kind and understanding to her. even when she told him about that, he didn't get mad, but rather...
he put her feelings before his own.
he poured out tears and cried for her.
and that's something she can admire, she feels.
a strength that she just can't match. a kindness that she's already practically lost. he's a shining light to the darkness that's penetrated her heart, and she can't help but fall deep into it. she wants to protect him, just a little.
she's had crushes before, but she's never had the deep dive into a proper romantic relationship. as a magus, she had to separate herself from other people. and honestly? normally she wouldn't be able to be with Battler, either...
especially when his ability clashes so much with her own.
but she's proverbially swept off her feet, forgetting all her worries and anxieties the very second she feels a hand on the side of her face, the way he leans in close. it's like those stories you read about in dusty old libraries.
she doesn't deny him the touch, or the kiss; while it might be a little awkward, given that they're two teenagers that have never explored this sort of thing before, there's something to it that's warm. comforting, even.
kind of strange, given... everything else.
instead of pulling back, though, she leans in a little. yearning. maybe just a little desperate. as if kissing him is all she needs in this world. perhaps it's because she's been alone all this time that affection like this... is new to her. something she kind of finds herself craving, surprisingly enough. and more than that, it's a good, ample distraction from basically everything.]
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The bittersweetness of first love had been one thing - but the feeling of realizing that you were in love with someone, and more than that...that the love is returned?
It's...incredible in a way that he's never felt before. No wonder George was so crazy about Shannon if it felt like this, like the world was just meant for two people, and two people alone...
She's so warm, is the first thought he had once his mind started up again. The smell of a field from the medicine she took was at the forefront of his mind...and he still likes it a lot. It's just so uniquely her that he won't be able to smell herbs and not think of her from now on.
As she leans in, he puts a little more force behind his - not much, but enough so that they're both fully feeling the sensation now. The hand on the side of her face begins to gently slide to the back of her head, gently tugging her a little forward towards him. ]
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she's had a crush on someone before Battler, of course, but she knew that would never come to fruition. after all, he liked someone else... didn't he? but also told her--
...
well, there's something that she should push to the side and ignore for as much as she possibly can. first loves are...
well...
she'd rather not.
just focus on this moment for once, Tohsaka Rin.
don't
ruin
it.
this is way too important to her, which is why when he puts a little more force into it, that's when the soft sounds come out. which... kind of surprises even her so now she's a bit flustered.
read as: even more than before.]