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RECORDING 4: THE SECOND WEEK

A second week in this place begins, with less of your number among you. With first blood - and oil - spilled, it now seems as if it'll only be a matter of time before the worse eventually happens once more. Thankfully, it seems as if the Miasma is content to remain at the same levels it did before, so arguments are unlikely to break out, though tensions are surely high after everything that's already occurred.
Speaking of which, the temperature remains a consistent comfortable early to mid 70's in the house. It appears at least that you'll be here in comfort..? Though it appears that the rooms have changed, so hopefully you kept anything essential in the static area.
Yet, something feels...wrong. The house feels as if it is laughing at you, when you awake...
...What new horrors await you this week?
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There's a faint pout at the corner of her mouth, as she disengages this time.]
...no, looks like that didn't work. Let's see... what else to try...
[Her eyes slowly drift over towards the fingers near her temple.]
...oh! Can I put my hand in your hair?
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ah
l-lol.]
If you'd like.
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(RIP, Dazai.)
With all due permission granted, her hand slips up to sink in his hair—and then clenches hard enough in it to put a not-quite-painful strain on it.]
How's this?
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as it is, it earns the barest of sounds from him as he tilts his head along with the pull.
fffffffffffffffcan'tbelievehe'sgettingfoundoutlikethisrude--]
Aha... try not to be too rough, Yachi-chan~
[his smile's a bit sharper but not in a way that's discouraging.]
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[Her enthusiasm is blotting out her normal trepidation, it seems like, as the success goes to her head. ...pun a little intended.]
Let's see... well, it was a shoujo manga, so I don't know if it's good enough in real life, but...
[She keeps her tug at a consistent pressure, even as she leans in and presses a gentle peck to the base of his ear.]
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as it is, vulnerable part of neck being touched at all is still... well.]
Ah... branching out a little?
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[You know what?
He spoke too soon.
Nip.]
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Yachi-chan...!
[PLEASE, HE'S TRYING SO HARD? TO BE GOOD???]
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[Oh no... did she bite too hard...]
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No... that...
Bites will only lead to more serious things please be more careful...
[and yet part of him already wanting to take revenge for this in-deliberate teasing.]
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[She leans back and rubs her cheek, peeking up at him as her self-consciousness begins creeping back in.]
Did it make you... happy?
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Yachi-chan...
[he always feels so miserable when he doesn't have a good answer for it.]
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[She says that with surprising firmness.]
It's... it's okay, Dazai-kun. I... well, we both know that I don't really know what I'm doing. If it doesn't feel good then, u-um, then you should be honest. I... I didn't ask you to do this with me so I could make you feel b-bad, or... or so you could spare my feelings.
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[facepalms.]
But asking if that is the same thing as happy is...
[he... doesn't know, okay?!]
Like when I kissed you, did that make you happy?
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...very much.
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[maybe. a bit jealous of that just. ability to know right away.]
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[Her gaze skitters away from his, and her cheeks heat.]
My... my stomach felt fluttery, a-and my chest felt warm and I d... didn't... want to... stop...
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then:]
It's... not like that for me--I mean, the last part of it is what I was talking about before.
[HE IS... VERY INTERESTED???]
But the rest.
It... hurts? But not in a bad way. But in a way... I once told a friend that if I wanted for something... inevitably, it'd be taken away. And I don't want it to happen again? But it feels like I just keep making the same mistake and I don't... know what to do?
[happiness appears to be backburner to internal screams of knowing he's doing a thing that's going to leave him severely hurt again]
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[She thinks about it, hands resting on his chest.]
We... we always lose everything, eventually. I know... I know that nothing lasts forever. And... and endings are always, always sad. But, um... just... not letting yourself reach for what you want... um...
[She's trying to find the right words.]
If you're going to lose it one way or another, then the... the only difference is actually having it, isn't it? That's... I mean...
[She's quiet for a moment.]
...would you... have been happier if we weren't friends, Dazai-kun?
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he's thought about this sort of thing a lot since Odasaku died, after all.
which sort of life would have been better?
there's no clear answer.]
If it meant you'd get to live well and die old, doing the things you've set your heart to doing... I could live with that.
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[She taps him on the chest.]
Could you live with having robbed me of that? With having made me unhappy by dint of... taking away the chance of happiness for both of us?
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... I suppose I don't really have an answer. Since I don't really understand it...
[like. honestly. why like him? he's garbage???]
Is that really how you feel about it?
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But this is her.]
...th-there's...
[She sucks in a breath.]
There's no... going back. E-Even if we... even if we get out of this h-house, we... I... I'm...
[Give her a second.]
...I'm... never going to see my m-mother again. Or... my friends from home. I'm—
[It hurts. It hurts. She doesn't want to say it because it hurts—]
I'm never going... home. So. I... I want to be happy however I can, for a-as long as I can, and... and if I can, I w-want to find a new h-home, too, a-and... and I want to have people I c-care about, too. Is that... too greedy...?
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he reaches up to cup her face, not letting her look away because he knows it hurts.]
What's wrong with being greedy in this kind of situation? You know... there are actual good men and women around here somewhere. You could have your pick.
[it comes out light-hearted but it's really anything but because ah, they're really going to hurt later, aren't they?]
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[She... doesn't realize just how much she's given away, in trying to get through to him.]
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