Opinions without 3.1415 are just Onions (Week1 post trial)

[ghostricked]

After everything, the house seems almost too still and too mundane. At least as long as the doors to that room remain closed. One by one those covered in what was once their teammate are lead to the showers or change in silence. There is no warm meal waiting for them. No words of encouragement.

Life goes on, regardless.

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[boardreversal]

[THERE ARE MANY REASONS AS TO WHY HE'S LIKE THIS. MANY, MANY REASONS.

But when Dazai says that...Battler laughs, oddly enough.]

I'm glad. You're not - like someone else I know.

[Beatrice. He means Beatrice.]

And it's not like I'm okay with you slapping me. But...I understand why you're doing it.

I won't accept it all the time. But, right now...I get it.

[cw_suicide]

Correction: I was and can be that sort of person.

Don't just determine someone is a certain way just because it feels comfortable for you. If I didn't have other objectives, I probably wouldn't mind playing out this scene in that fashion.

[HOW DARE YOU TRY TO SAY HE IS GOOD WHEN HE HAS NOT BEEN THE SLIGHTEST GOOD WITH YOU???]

[boardreversal]

But you're trying not to be, right?

[And that, in his mind, makes all the difference.]

Even if you were like that in the past, and could be like that now...you don't want to be like that anymore, do you?

...You could have done way worse to me than a slap. But you didn't. You could be awful to everyone else here, but you aren't.

[He's not dumb - he sees things. He sees how Dazai interacts with other people, and even if their own relationship is rocky...]

...And I'd rather you be awful to me than to anyone else, because I can take it.

[cw_suicide]

[there's a tense stillness that screams that Dazai's wanting to lash out. but so much of it doesn't really have anything to do with Battler at all, and that last comment...]

Ah, is that so.

Then I refuse to be so kind.

Besides which, we both know who I'd much rather be awful to, don't we?

[ha. HA. joke's on you, buddy, you can't out-self-loathe this guy.]

[boardreversal]

['...This again?'

He can't help but think that as Dazai states the usual. Yes, he's suicidal. Yes, he clearly loathes himself, but -

This time, Battler doesn't react.]

...Yeah, I know. But -

[...]

...Is that...really the truth...?

[cw_suicide]

[wow.]

Of course it is. Why wouldn't it be?

[boardreversal]

[The look he gives is a skeptical one, but it's...

Also a look of someone starting to figure out the pattern to how this works. It might take him a while, but...]

...If you say so, Dazai-san.

[There's also, still...something bothering him, but he'll leave it for now.]

[cw_suicide]

... this definitely shows some brain damage from that fall.

[you're still doing the thing and i still want to kick your face.]