[it could be so easy to go into a tailspin with the existential crisis about how if it's not his fault, then that means there was no reason for it and if there's no reason for it, it just means everything's random and that leaves too much up for chance for what will happen next and--

but then there's a stern Hitoka watching him and kissing him and he's not really sure what's the right answer here? Hitoka is making a good argument for agreeing, though]

... I don't know what else to do?