[she shrugs, and BELATEDLY, is being very conscious of who sees this plan, gives Gil a little sign with her fingers over her lips to keep it down. Then she writes:

"I don't understand it either. Apparently he likes mystery novels, so it's supposed to be a mystery...? I don't know. He's told me outright I die. He's told me outright my daughter dies. You think I liked hearing it??"

She'll leave out how she apparently accused him.

"Well, maybe... but do we want a scenario where ALL of us are dead and miserable ghosts, or a scenario where potentially all of us are alive, and SOME of us are miserable? Who knows. Maybe the idea of 'Beatrice' being back will make him enthusiastic again."]