It's just...I've been in situations like that before. The whole thing about being a slave to an organization isn't that far from the truth, Dazai. Although I don't know how it was for this Mori, but I didn't exactly have an option when I became leader. I was just...forced into the role, to say the least.

[ he leans back, sighing deeply. ]

But it's so much different when you see it from a privileged place than when you see the consequences of your actions in person. Even if it was the logical decision, I feel like getting shot actually hurt less than watching Rin die. [ a pause. ] That sounds stupid, doesn't it?