[well. even if that was generously short, it still hits right at the heart of things for Dazai, so he stays quiet for a moment, looking bleakly down at the journal in his hand.]

... Gilgamesh-sama... if Gin-san has objections to shielding people because I'd be included... tell him to exclude me, then.

[it comes out a bit numbly because he doesn't... want to volunteer. he said he wouldn't, but also. they can't afford him not volunteering.]