Works for me.

[He's pretty sure the fate was death. But hey, he's alive. That's...slightly better because it means still being in this mansion, but at least he's not dead.

Emil shrugs, putting the rifle aside]

I don't know for sure what I was doing. When the lights turned off, I saw things like I have all this week, and I just...couldn't think of anything but wanting to shoot at Haku. So everything that was happening would stop.