Shouldn't I?

I was very frivolous. I would talk about my friend to my subordinates, warn them against upsetting him, and maybe I said something to the Boss or someone told him...?

Ah, but then, I also would overlook things like a lead of a unit not taking care of underlings who'd take product--undermined the Boss's authority, wasn't that so?

It's no wonder the Boss would think I was gunning for him. Doing things like that and meeting with someone I'd say was capable at a bar after work. It's so obvious now that that's how it looked, isn't it?

[he's speaking with a clear enough voice, not seeming able to put on the breaks after he starts because no, she's wrong she doesn't understand how it went

the real tragedy is that he had just been a brat. who didn't want people killed over drugs missing and just wanted time with friends separate from his mafia life and just didn't register how bad it looked until he was standing in Mori's office, begging for him to save Odasaku.]

It'll be the same here, won't it? If I let on or people see too much--ah, but it's probably... already a bit late for that...